okay.
So someone's really angry at me now?



probably this doesnt clear things up much,
but i completely meant it as a joke? I really mean it as a joke!
cos I was like, ee! why you dont want to lend me.
and i didn't want to follow you cos i was lazy.


and the disappointed part shld be quite self-explanatory in the post before hand.
okay, i know this sounds way ridiculous and CLICHE
but really! I wasn't talking about you!!!

anyway, I'm really sorry okay.
I really never knew you felt that way,
i promise.

It's just that, I get heated up when people don't tell me things?
Like the basketball incident, I think that was our biggest quarrel since forever, but I was really upset that time.
We were only sec 1 , you were my only friend in the club, but you quitted without telling me, and still agreed to meet me for training, but I only found out later from another friend from another school that you joined choir instead.

That time I really felt very upset because you didn't even tell me about it.
But I've put it past me now.
Certain things I've been trying to change, and these changed really donte take place in just a year or something.
I know I'm not always correct and I apologize if I've ever made you distressed or something. But you say that we dont have mutal trust and respect, but the fact that I actually take the risk to criticise, means that I would like to tell you that there are areas we can improve together, but I'll never know the bad spot in my personality and character if you dont let me be aware of it.

You like to keep things to yourself, and parts in my life where things have gone wrong that I myself dont know about, I'm sure you've taken note of it.
You may not trust me, but I trust you?
You knew my every problem.
You knew that I was having some problems with friends earlier back
You knew that I missed my parents like crazy and how often they come back.
You knew the fact I couldn't manage my funds well enough and keep overspending and in the end i had to borrow from you.
You knew the fact that I can't sleep during the nights
You knew the fact that I am completely lazy
You knew the fact my brother and I dont get along.
You knew the fact that I hated living where I am.


I dont know, you seem really angry and want to end it all.
And you say that I dont deserve you're respect,
but I'm only the same age as you, I have my fair share, or even more of my own problems,
I can't marvel you with everything I do.
Because it gets tired, exhausting when I'm doing it all alone.

Since last time, you were always the one to apologize to me.
But now, I actually know that you're displeased with me certain way or another, at last after three long years together, I know where i've gone wrong
and I'm really sorry.

wendy i'm sorry.